One of Forbidden Feelings

"Be extremely selective about which memories you want to keep. they define who you are today, tomorrow, and the next one hundred years. They determine the kind of heart that will grow in your chest.
When it's quiet, start to play hide and seek with your memories and always cheat on the bad ones. They're always too sneaky to be left behind, they will haunt you wherever you go; whoever you are with.
Especially the memories that you consciously want to forget; too stubborn to die; too confident to leave; too self-centered to understand; too heavy to disappear.

Sometimes it depends on how much love and hate you invest in those memories. Is it too much love and less hate? Is it too much hate and less love?
The funny thing is the more you hate you put in, the harder you forget. The more anger and rage in it, the sadder you become.

When everything goes really bad but you're able to get through that shitty situation, you're magically reborn. You feel more loved and more attached to the person you hate the most.
That's why the hardest memories to forget is the worst memories to remember.
People are funny, they are always willing to hurt themselves.
And when everything comes to an end, there's nothing but this exhausting effort to forget."

The Book of Forbidden Feelings by Lala Bohang, page 106.